*NEW SIDE SKIRTS* 

*trying to keep up with the turbos* 

*photo session by the science centre* 

seventy times seven

well i can't regret, cant you just forget it?
we started something we couldn't finish.
if i go down we go down together.
to you best friends means: best friends for means.

and you never knew because i never told you..that
everything i know about breaking hearts,
i learnt from you it's true!
i never did it with the style and grace you had
but i made other plans, based on these mistakes.

you used to say you have to go.
i could go all night.
i got a bad feeling about this.
i got a bad feeling about this.

anyone will do tonight...
and i'll wear the past like a badge of honour.
to me best friends means: i pull the trigger.

epitome of perfection

things dont turn out the way u mean them to be.
people dont end up being the way u thought they would be.
things crash and burn.
people turn their backs and betray you.

the people you ignore and put away in life.
would end up being the ones that never stopped loving you.
the people that you give total and absolute affection to.
end up being the ones that let you down and break your heart.

things that i was unable and unwilling to try in the past.
have turned out to be things that make me who i am today.
things that i adored in the past.
have turned out to be mere images of the person i used to be.

i hold so many things dear.
but how many of these things will let me down tomorrow.
like how you let me down.
like how he has let me down.

i still hold strong to the things that are constant.
the things in my life that dont change.
best friends, family, and the only person that has never given up on me.
i love them and hold them dear and close.

*TEAM PRO-HATCH* CONVOY 

mr. brightside

its all in the motion.
the motion that pushes her away from me.
moving away.
moving further to his arms.
moving towards the starboard side of the boat.
only to jump overboard.
to be consumed by the waves of time.
the waves that change her whole being.
changing her perspective of me.
why did she have to go?
i was doing just fine until she came along.
it all started with a kiss.
how did it end up like this?
it was only a kiss.

now they are going to bed.
and my stomach feels sick.
and its all in my head.

BUT

shes touching his chest.
and hes taking off her dress.
LET ME GO!
i just can't look, it's killing me.
and taking control.

jealousy. jealousy.
im choking on your alibi for letting me go.
i guess this is the price i pay

im mr. brightside.

im taking back sunday

so sick of being tired. so tired of being sick.
so obviously desperate. so desperately obvious.
so good at setting bad examples, listen chick ive had all i can handle.
because hoping for the best is hoping nothing happens.
why cant i feel anything from anyone other than you? this is all wrong.
it shows that the certain things i promised, not to let you go, ill never let you go.
for friends who never loved you nearly half as much as me.
because im broken down in bars and bathrooms, and you dont believe me when i tell you its something unforgivable.
BEST FRIENDS MEANS I PULL THE TRIGGER.
BEST FRIENDS MEANS YOU GET WHAT YOU DESERVE.

your own disaster

Just think of this and me as just a few of the many things to lie around to clutter up your shelves . And I wish you weren't worth the wait, because there's some thing's I'd like to say to you...And I don't think that you know what you've been missing. And I dare you to forget the marks you left across my neck from those nights when we were both found at our best. Now I could make this obvious,and you,you could deny me all in one breath you could shrug me off your shoulders...I said I don't think you know what your missing

sunday drive - a dedication

am i designated to end up feeling this way over and over and over again? contemplating outcomes of what could have been or what could have been different if i hadn't been that big of a idiot. if i hadn't let things slip out of control. if i hadn't let things slip out of my grasp. laying down i wonder what you could be up to. how many smiles you could be sharing with other people. how many kisses you could be handing out to the ones you care about. wondering whether i would ever end up in your list again. am i just a has-been? am i something that you passed over? am i something that you let go off a long time ago? or am i something insignificant that you didn't need to let go off in the 1st place?

WHAT COULD YOU BE DOING THAT IS SO MUCH FUN?
WITHOUT ME BY YOUR SIDE. WITHOUT ME BY YOUR SIDE.
I WILL TAKE A STEP BACK.
I'LL LET YOU AHEAD.
I'll TAKE A STEP AWAY AND SEE IF YOU COME BACK.
THERES NO MORE TRYING TO MAKE THIS SO RIGHT.
WE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME.
WE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME.
WE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME.
UNTIL YOU'RE DONE.

honesty

as i watch the people around me grow in stature and mature, i cant stop but wonder where i am in life right now. where am i heading towards. do i have direction? do i have a purpose and sense in life. i drift, day in day out. sitting out on the porch watching the cars pass me by. 18 blue. 21 grey. i pause to contemplate how far i've come in life. i pause to enjoy the fresh air. the blue skies. 3 months have gone by. 3 horrid but well eventful months. so much has happened. so many bonds have been formed and broken at the same time. learning to care more for others rather than myself. being less selfish and at the same time learning to care for myself. learning to love myself more. i learnt that i can make it through the rough patches. the tough times. i am strong. but no man is an island. and i could not have made it through the raging ocean if it were not for the dear people that have been an inspration and a guiding light. the darkness came. the darkness engulfed me in all its glory. but ive come to realise that the night is overly dark because the day is much too bright. happiness fills me when i realise that i have had good times. i have had smiles and i have enjoyed every ounce of daylight that shined through the broken window. honestly, i am truly blessed. live for the moment because you never know what the future brings. happy chinese new year everybody.

reinventing your exit

we're nothing short of invincible. it starts again. can you feel it? it takes your breath away. stop saying that we're invincible. its round and round. you are uninviting. unrewarding. and i'm misinforming you. we all want to be, want to be somebody. right now, we're just looking for the exit. this is the way i would have done things. up against the wall. up against your wall.

it's you and me on a monday. the lies that we both told. this is where we both go numb now. you broke my heart again this time. you're fading now you've crossed the line.

im reaching out for a hand thats not there. you're not there.

on the way down

sick and tired of this world. theres no more air. tripping over myself. going no where. waiting. suffocating. no direction. and i took a dive. and on the way down i saw you. and you saved me from myself. and i wont forget the way you loved me. on the way down, i almost fell right through. but im still holding on to you.